Attitude

I had been away long, funny that while I was in a country where the pace of life was so fast, I could blog daily and while I am in a sleepy little town, I cant get myself to share anymore :)

UK so far has been brilliant to me, been around a bit - Went to Devon for the Easter weekend, booked ourselves into a resort with caravans instead of chalets and the experience was good, reminded me of the Chalets on East Coast Park, although the beach here was no where near as crowded as Singapore. You can go on to my yahoo photos for the snaps (http://photos.yahoo.com/shan_kumar_2000)

Getting back to what prompted me to write again - I spoke with my dear cousin recently and she had something to say which bothered me over the entire weekend. She had seen the photos and suggested that I wear a wig, one of the new costly ones that are done up to a fine level of detail. I had none of it and she said people don’t believe my age! I have had that since my Higher Secondary school days so it definitely was not news to me but I do appreciate her concern. The punch line was when she said she IS worried about my marriage, whether any girl would actually agree to marry me - definitely got me thinking......will I ever get married....I never knew that there was money riding on the vacant seat alongside me

I hope to get married actually, if not for the really devastating loss of my young cousin, there would have been few of us in my family who would have tied the knot over this year and the next, starting with my sister. So what can I do about my looks, well I have started with the gym....lose the excess weight, looking to get down to 70s....preferably 75! Started at 91 and am at 86 now. Next, as with every other bald person, shave whatever is left on the scalp and grow a goatee...done. Finally pray...hahahaha....

Seriously speaking though, except for what I have mentioned I don’t think I will doing anything more.....I read once, in life, what happens to you is only 10% and the rest of the 90% is how you react to it, I have accepted the fact that its not growing back again. So the question is do I feel inferior? Never and never ever....one can never feel/made to feel so without his/her permission and as my gmail signature goes, inferior compared to whom? I certainly do know people who at the moment are on a higher pedestal but I don’t want to be relatively happy....but happy! I am a firm believer in destiny and I believe I am destined for great things.

I do have list of things I want to achieve, a list whose contents have been and will be modified by the important people in my life but the direction, never! I hope to be remembered for the legacy that I will leave behind. A legacy about what I had done and what I helped people around me to do. Like my grandfather, who despite losing his wife at an early age, educated his 6 kids including the girls so that they can lead a better life than him. He was not educated and clearly that did not limit his visionary thinking. For me there is no better role model. It’s not about working within your limits but working the right way around……